Short Post of the Week: Mistaken Age

2 Fridays ago I was at my two sisters' dance performance at her school. It is an annual thing they do, and that Friday I had school off. It was a nice performance. After, we were going to pick up my sister. A lady walks up to me and says,

You had a great performance! Good job!

It was very kind of the lady to thank me. There is just a few problems.

This is an elementary school and I'm in 10th grade.
I thought I looked young but not 11 year old young.
Even a girl at school agreed I looked like a 5th grader.
Hey? I guess its a good thing in some perspective.
Haha *sigh*

Another Update Post!

As of today, I have been thinking of opening my own webiste just for video. I might have 3 short films shot before school finishes in early June and I would like to put them somewhere. Overall, I just want a place to put my work. For blogger it is very hard because you can only create one post with the other pages. I don't want to open another blog because I don't like keeping up with both of them. I have a livejournal it is hard to update often.

My second update is that starting this summer I might be writing my posts in other languages. They won't be entirely in a different language, but there will be bits. I really want to practice my foreign languages. By the way, I am learning French and Japanese. I do know a little Spanish, but don't see me using it since I barely remember anything.

My last update is that I will soon get photoshop (Hopefully CS5) for my PC. I also might get dreamweaver. It might take a few weeks though.

I'm sorry I haven't gotten around to posting more. It will be harder because my APUSH exam is coming up the first week of May so I need to study. After that, I will get more into blogging, short films, design, and maybe vlogging which I have always wanted to do.

Have a good day!

-Meghan :)

What? There's a Sophomore Prom?

As I was staring into space in my AP US History class today, I heard my classmates talk about prom. A senior in my class ask the girls next to me if they were going to prom, and they said no. The problem is, the girls next to me are sophomores. I was curious whether or not our school had a prom for sophomores.

There is a prom for sophomores? I thought it was only for the juniors and seniors?!?

Apparently, there indeed is a prom for sophomores at my school. Maybe I'm wrong, but they say there is.

For me, I don't want to go. I don't want to spend the money and I really hate going to the school's social events. Another factor is I would have no one to go with. The people I would consider going with aren't going. I probably would be the only one there alone. Besides, why do sophomores need a prom? Gosh! I'd rather be home studying!

The truth is, I really dislike these types of events. There is so much money put into this! The people planning the prom and the people attending. How much does a girl spend on prom? I know many of them buy (or I hear rent?) a dress, do there hair, nails, makeup, and whatever! Maybe its just me, but I don't care about what I look like. Don't get me wrong, I do care about what I look like but I don't take 2 to 3 hours to get ready. Maybe I just don't get it.


(I saw at least 10-12 of these on Saturday)

Lots of people rent limos. My siblings and I have a tradition or "calling" limos or "slug bugs" as they come past us. We have to name the type of car, the color, the license plate state, and sometimes the car maker. My younger sister says, "No punch backs!" which I have no idea what that means. Isn't it neat to go in a limo. (Unless you ride in one all the time, then it probably gets boring). I'm used to the black and white limos. Nowadays I see Pink limos. My youngest sister gets so jealous! :D

Sometimes I do feel like I'm missing out on something, but other times I wished I would move on in high school. It is just 4 years. Yes, it is one of our last years before heading off on our own, but isn't school mostly about learning? Maybe it was how I was raised... School is for learning, not for unrelated activities. (Its probably due to the lack of outgoing friends who want to do everything.) I don't know, I wished they had more education opportunities!

Anyway, how does prom work at your school? Are you going this year?

(Like my sister said in this one video!) Peace, love, and happiness!

Meghan! :D

Just Another Day

Hello, I'd like to wish you a great day!

Anyway, the weekend is nearly over. In a few hours I will have to start my homework, luckily I don't have much to do. My mom's birthday was today and my sister made a cake. The cake, in my opinion, was dry. I prefer to make lemon/white cake instead because whenever my family makes a chocolate cake it isn't moist. My mom got a present, she got smelly markers from my little sister. Why mom mom needs smelly markers, I don't know, those will end up going to my sister.

I'm very nervous for the next couple weeks of school. My AP US History Exam is coming up, and I feel like I'm not ready. I didn't miserably on my last unit exam, I just don't know if I will do well on the REAL test.

I have noticed I have started to gain some weight. Though I'm only around 118 pounds, it is much different from the beginning of the school year which I was 108-110 pounds. It is just hard because I haven't bought new pants and my current jeans are getting too tight for me. I remember when I couldn't fit into a size 2! I should start exercising more. Luckily over summer break I will play more tennis. In fact..........

Summer break is only about 2 months away! I'm so excited. I'm ready to go to California and enjoy the warm weather. The hottest so far it has gotten where I live was the low 60's. Hopefully, though, it will warm up as May and June comes around.

The weekends ending, sadly, but there will be more coming up. There will be more time to relax to summer! :)

The First Day of April

Hello everybody!

Well, it's the first day of April. I can tell by the looks of the weather that sun may be on our way. (Well, me in Oregon). I went to the park today expecting a couple of people, but what I saw was a crowd of little kids and their parents. I nicely gave up my swing for a little girl who kept staring at me and I watched as all the little kids ran around. I remember the days when I played tagged........

Wait, I never played tag. APRIL FOOLS! (Sorry, I just had to add that in.)

School for me this year has not been how I have thought it would be. First of all, I have been lazy ever since the first week of school. My grades are near low As high Bs when I'm used to middle to high As. Yes, school gets harder but I am not trying my absolute best.

Second, I get tired way too easily. Can't concentrate....

Third,I think people despise me even more. (Especially those freshmen who stare at me like I'm some sort of hideous creature). I do not understand why people avoid me in the first place. I'm not a scary person. As I walk into the school, I lower my head in shame. I'm afraid that people will judge me. Their judgemental ways have made me feel bad about myself. Inside I am crying wishing to talk to someone who will accept me. Today in math, I felt like if I laugh others would just stare. They would stare and wonder why I would laugh.

Do I deserve to laugh at others' jokes not meant toward me? I have ears, eyes, and emotions. I can hear what they say about me. How I'm weird and don't dress "well". I can see them staring at me. I prevent the tears from coming out until after I leave the bus. My heart cries out for acceptance, but all I ever get is ignorance and glares from girls who think they are all that. The boys can't even see me.....

.....Not many people can.......

I'm just a figure, a motionless figure. I don't do anything but fill space. I sometimes think to myself, "Am I a joke to these people?" I remember a month ago I was standing in the lunch line. I was minding my own business. I realized a boy pointing a me. Their eyes all look in my direction. Usually people talk about someone past me, so I look around. They comment about how I was "hot" or whatever and started laughing. I looked away in embarrasement. A little after, I realized after they were just a bunch of immature freshmen. Though, I shouldn't be making fun of them just because they were freshmen. Last year, a trio of junior/senior boys made fun of my glasses. That moment, my friend asked me what they were saying. (She doesn't know much english). I didn't tell her....

I dislike my school, as you can tell. I'd hear about all the stuck up, rich kids who are only friends with people who were like that also. They are not all bad, but it isn't easy to avoid these people. I tell my parents, my counselors, and to anyone who is willing to talk to me that I try to treat everyone equally and not look down upon anyone. It is hard, very hard....

As of now, typing in my room, I would like to say have a good day! Other than the life of mine I told you about, I did start my Japanese class. I received a textbook yesterday and couldn't stop skimming the pages... Haha! :D

Have a great April!